Monday, December 28, 2009
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
A year has passed. Yet it seems like yesterday that my world came crashing down and I had to make the hardest decision of my life. It’s still so hard to believe he is gone. It’s been a year and yet still so surreal. So much has happened in a year. A year ago, I never would have pictured my life where it is today. With the help of my wonderful family and friends, and the hugs and kisses from my beautiful girls, I have managed to put one foot in front of the other and try to make the best out of a horrible situation. Over the past year, there were days that I wanted to lay in bed, put the covers over my head, and never wake up. But how would that help the situation any? How would that make me a better mom? And Rob would NOT want that. This is my reality. This is my life now. Nothing I do will change that. So, for my sake and the sake of my daughters, I need to make life as normal and happy as possible for us. Our life will never be the “old normal” so we’re making a “new normal”. I’m learning that God does continue to bless, even through tragedy. Yesterday we came back to Osceola and Julia didn’t go to school today. This morning I went to the gravesite. What a difference one year makes. It’s full of grass. Then, I decided to try to make a sad day into a happy one. I surprised Julia with a new puppy. He is a havanese, black and white, and absolutely ADORABLE! He loves people (and kids) and is such a snuggle bug! He took to us right away and Julia is so excited. His name is D’ogie (pronounced D.O.G.—hahaha). It has made the day so much easier for us. Yesterday I put together a slideshow of pictures from Rob’s final homecoming to Nebraska, his wake, funeral, Memorial Service at Ft Hood, and Memorial Day. I’m going to try to figure out how I can post it on here and when I do, I’ll post it. It’s a great tribute and shows the pride Americans have for soldiers. Again, thank you so much for the support you have shown the girls and I throughout this past year. It has meant so much to us!!