Friday, February 20, 2009
We finally have our OWN house in Nebraska!!
Well, Tuesday I closed on my house in Nebraska. It went smooth and I felt rather proud of myself for being able to buy a house on my own. However, saying that, this milestone is also very bittersweet. I'm very nervous about owning a house all by myself. Granted, I'm extremely lucky to have an awesome father and brothers, but it's still nerve wracking! I just wish Rob was living with us. There are so many things I want to ask his opinion about and I find myself arranging the house by how I know he would have liked it. My dad, my brothers, and I are leaving early in the morning to go to TX. The packers and movers will be at the house there Mon-Wed and my brothers are driving my boat back for me. Obviously, I'm anxious to have our things back and put into our new house, but I'm absolutely dreading the house in TX becoming empty. I loved that house and Rob and I had it built together. It would have been one thing if we were moving somewhere else the Army took us but it's so much HARDER leaving it without Rob. That being said, I think it will help me move forward by getting settled in a new house. I have lots of projects planned to keep me busy. The movers are delivering our things on the 5th of March so between when we get back from TX and the 5th, my dad and I are putting hard wood floors on the main level of the house. Plus, I also have to get Julia's room painted! Both of those things are much easier to do BEFORE the furniture arrive!! In my whole adult life I've never lived in a house longer than 2 years so I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to do several "projects" and rearranging in the years to come to make it feel "new" again! On a different note, Julia and I attending another Charlie Brown's group last night. Julia usually isn't too eager to go but I still have her go because I feel in the end, it will be very beneficial to her. Last night they started talking about the grief process and this will take several of the days to cover. Well, when we were done, Julia said to me "Mommy, we can't miss for 2 weeks because we're talking about our feelings. Feelings that we think are bad, like anger, really aren't bad if you learn how to use it in a good way!" I was so happy that she was excited about this. I can see she is listening and getting things out of it. Plus I think it helped because last night there were several girls her age in her group. So, little by little, minute by minute, we'll continue to figure out how to get through life without Rob and daddy.
Posted by Dena Yllescas at 11:50 PM